Fit into the box!

A new year will be upon us pretty soon, and I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.  A LOT OF THINKING.  Instead of the generic, "New Year, New Me", my resolution is to write more.  So, look forward to some completely random postings about love and life with 3 little boys.

This morning I was thinking about who I am, who I was, who I'm going to be and how that impacts my boys lives.  As a mother, like many of you, I worry about so many things.  I always want the 3 of them to just BE, be THEMSELVES and in this world where the message is often, "But you must be different than what you are", I worry that they'll be put in a box that doesn't fit.

So we're all supposed to fit in this ordinary box, right?  It's the only box that's accepted, so either adapt to the box or fail.  Fit in this box and then stay there the rest of your life because that is who you are.  It is who you are and always have been and if you change, if you dare waiver, then it can't possibly be you.

But what if the box never fit in the first place?

Recently I took Titan shopping for felt so that he could make a gingerbread man at school, and I was  reminded that I, his own mother, have already started putting him in a box.  I automatically took him to the "brown" section of felt because gingerbread men are you know, BROWN.  But Titan didn't want brown, he wanted blue.

"But mom, I don't want a brown gingerbread man, I want him to be blue".
"Titan, gingerbread men are brown, not blue.  That doesn't make any sense".

"Why mom, why does it matter if he is blue or brown?  I like blue, its my favorite color".
"You know what, you're right.  It doesn't matter if he's brown or blue, or if you have the only blue gingerbread man in your class.  You be YOU.  Thanks for the reminder, buddy".

I had already put him in that box because I didn't want his gingerbread man (HIM) to be different than the norm.  Shame on me.

I'm looking forward to 2016 and maybe, just maybe, pushing back against the box.


(Told you it was completely random :)  Hope you all are able to navigate through my thought process).